Monday, March 25, 2013

Patience and the Path to Perfection -- 25 March 2013

When I wake up in the morning, you know just what I think? It's a very special day, the best day of the week! TREAT DAY!!!!

Dear Friends and family, I sure hope I got your favourite song stuck in your head, because it is jammed in mine.

Yesterday was a very nice Sunday. An investigator we had was confirmed a member of the Church and on top of that, I got to sing. Not in a solo, but in a choir!!! It's the institute choir down here in Medicine Hat! Last week they called and they said, "Elder Hill, we hear you can sing."        Uh oh.
So, I went over to the church and they handed me some music that they needed a tenor part on. So I sang tenor. I'm sure I stood out like a stain on a tie, but it was so nice to have the opportunity to be a part of it. I love to sing so much, and I am so grateful for music and for the spirit that it helps me to feel.

To this day, whenever I'm hurting or need some help or have trouble feeling the Spirit for whatever reason, I still turn to the music I learned in high school. I remember, "Praise to the Lord of the Small, broken things..." and "When your weary heart is tired, if the world should leave you uninspired, if nothing more than love's desired, my blessing goes with you. When the storms of life are strong, when you're wounded, when you don't belong, when you no longer hear my song, my blessing goes with you..." Even O Joli Jeu (which has nothing to do with God) brings back memories that help me to focus on the Lord. Music is a powerful resource for personal conversion.

Anyway, recently I have been focusing on studying Patience. This is what PMG says: 
"Patience is the capacity to endure delay, trouble, opposition, or suffering without becoming angry, frustrated, or anxious. It is the ability to do God’s will and accept His timing. When you are patient, you hold up under pressure and are able to face adversity calmly and hopefully. Patience is related to hope and faith—you must wait for the Lord’s promised blessings to be fulfilled.
You need patience in your everyday experiences and relationships, especially with your companion. You must be patient with all people, yourself included, as you work to overcome faults and weaknesses.

“Life is full of difficulties, some minor and others of a more serious nature. There seems to be an unending supply of challenges for one and all. Our problem is that we often expect instantaneous solutions to such challenges, forgetting that frequently the heavenly virtue of patience is required.”
  
It talks about not being angry, frustrated, or anxious. Well, I'm a perfectionist. I tend to get angry, frustrated, and anxious about things all the time because I worry so much about the mistakes that I make. The thing is, all of those emotions carry on. When you feel them in one part of your life, they are automatically involved in another part of your life. The good news is I'm growing.

I learned today that another great word that could be substituted for "patience" is "trust" specifically "Trust in the Lord" (see Proverbs 3:5-6 and Mosiah 23: 21-22).

 21 Nevertheless the Lord seeth fit to achasten his people; yea, he trieth their bpatience and their faith.
 22 Nevertheless—whosoever putteth his atrust in him the same shall be blifted up at the last day. Yea, and thus it was with this people.


When we trust in the Lord, we are enabled to look past our imperfections and the imperfections of others.

The next thing I thought of was anxiety. Why? Well, patience means not feeling anxious, and, frankly, I feel anxious at every moment. My heart pounds within me and I am afraid of making mistakes whenever I speak to people or teach, or train, or do anything as a missionary, really. It has taken a great amount of personal guts to get through my fears, and I've done it, because I believe it is what I need to be doing. Well, "true doctrine, understood, changes attitudes and behavior, faster than a study of behavior changes behavior." So, here's what I didn't understand: I didn't understand what it meant to forget my own imperfections, and to rely wholly on the Lord. To "trust in Him" is more than just doing what He says, it's doing what He says, in His way, in His time, through Him, letting go of all personal reservations, including---if not especially---fear. When we trust God, the anxiety abates, because we KNOW He can and will get it taken care of. When we trust God, we know He will take us completely and that He will change us to meet His standards. We will be, literally, perfected in Him. Anxiety, fear, impatience, gone.


Well, I just felt like sharing that with everyone. I love you all so much! Have a great week! I love you all!

This is M, the agnostic we met when I first came to this area.

Monday, March 18, 2013

Well, I got halfway through my email and decided it wasn't inspired, so I'm doing something else. -- 18 March 2013

Dear everyone, I hope you are well.

Thomas S. Monson says things so much better than I can. I will quote one of my favorite articles by him:

Have a Positive Attitude

A in my ABCs refers to attitude. William James, a pioneering American psychologist and philosopher, wrote, “The greatest revolution of our generation is the discovery that human beings, by changing the inner attitudes of their minds, can change the outer aspects of their lives.”1
So much in life depends on our attitude. The way we choose to see things and respond to others makes all the difference. To do the best we can and then to choose to be happy about our circumstances, whatever they may be, can bring peace and contentment.
Charles Swindoll—author, educator, and Christian pastor—said: “Attitude, to me, is more important than … the past, … than money, than circumstances, than failures, than successes, than what other people think or say or do. It is more important than appearance, giftedness, or skill. It will make or break a company, a church, a home. The remarkable thing is we have a choice every day regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day.”2
We can’t direct the wind, but we can adjust the sails. For maximum happiness, peace, and contentment, may we choose a positive attitude.

Believe in Yourself

B is for believe—in yourself, in those around you, and in eternal principles.
Be honest with yourself, with others, and with your Heavenly Father. One who was not honest with God until it was too late was Cardinal Wolsey who, according to Shakespeare, spent a long life in service to three sovereigns and enjoyed wealth and power. Finally, he was shorn of his power and possessions by an impatient king. Cardinal Wolsey cried:
Had I but served my God with half the zeal
I served my king, He would not in mine age
Have left me naked to mine enemies.3
Thomas Fuller, an English churchman and historian who lived in the 17th century, penned this truth: “He does not believe that does not live according to his belief.”4
Don’t limit yourself and don’t let others convince you that you are limited in what you can do. Believe in yourself and then live so as to reach your possibilities.
You can achieve what you believe you can. Trust and believe and have faith.

Face Challenges with Courage

C is for courage. Courage becomes a worthwhile and meaningful virtue when it is regarded not so much as a willingness to die manfully but as a determination to live decently.
Said the American essayist and poet Ralph Waldo Emerson: “Whatever you do, you need courage. Whatever course you decide on, there is always someone to tell you that you are wrong. There are always difficulties arising that tempt you to believe that your critics are right. To map out a course of action and follow it to an end requires some of the same courage that a soldier needs. Peace has its victories, but it takes brave men and women to win them.”5
There will be times when you will be frightened and discouraged. You may feel that you are defeated. The odds of obtaining victory may appear overwhelming. At times you may feel like David trying to fight Goliath. But remember—David did win!
Courage is required to make an initial thrust toward one’s coveted goal, but even greater courage is called for when one stumbles and must make a second effort to achieve.
Have the determination to make the effort, the single-mindedness to work toward a worthy goal, and the courage not only to face the challenges that inevitably come but also to make a second effort, should such be required. “Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying, ‘I will try again tomorrow.’”

Friends, I hope we will all believe in ourselves enough, and adjust our attitudes, so that we can have the courage to conquer the paths set before us.
I know this gospel is true and I know Christ lives. I love you all very much. :D

Rock on. Peace, love, and temple marriage. In that order.

Elder Hill

Tuesday, March 12, 2013

You're Not Going to Believe What Happened to Me... -- 12 March 2013

Once upon a time, it was DST, so we were really tired (.5 mph)... suddenly (7:15) the phone rings. It's the Zone Leaders. They say, "Elder R wants to meet with you and your companion in 30 minutes, can you be there?" We respond: "Be there in 20." And just like that we kicked it from first all the way up to sixth and were at 60 mph in under a second. We made it to church in 20 minutes.

Now, Elder Hill, why on earth does it matter? Well, because Elder R is our Area Seventy visiting Medicine Hat. Anyway, he gave my companion and I---and the 5th ward PEC--- a training on directing missionary work within the ward. It was awesome!! Sooooooo cool. He gave us a fright though. It was a moment that made you go, WHITCHICKABAM!

Furthermore, my boy and I have been having a rough time with planning at night.  We had been resorting to doing it in the morning. You know how it is, you get home at 9:30 after a long day and the last thing you want to do is plan. Well, we repented last week and decided that we would plan before we did anything else. Before the bathroom, before the shower, before the area book, before the journal, before bed it was going to get done every night by the spirit. So, this last week we planned every day by the spirit and... holy tolito, the very gates of hell were rocked by the amount of miracles we saw this week. Just incredible.

Anyway, I'm trying to be more discreet with my emails, lest I give away too much information, so please forgive the vague nature of the previous paragraph.

I will not be transferred this transfer. Meaning, I will be in Medicine Hat for 6 months or more. However, my area is being split and sisters will be taking over Third Ward. Thus, we are losing our car and will be on bikes and walking (Third Ward covers half of Medicine Hat... it's huge! so, good-bye to my gut).

By the way, I hadn't stepped on a scale since before my mission until last week. And, despite my best efforts to be healthy, it seems that Canada is determined to make me fat. Small meals all day, until dinner. "Elders, what can I pass you? Elders, we don't want any leftovers. Elders, which half of this pie do you want to eat?" (don't get me wrong, I love pie, but for goodness sakes... a whole half!?) Anyway, I'm now 185 and dropping. That's 20 pounds! To the bikes! Away! ;)

Well... oh, yeah!!! DDM's! As you know, I'm a district leader. I'm not very good at it... yet. So my DDM's have been poorly presented and my trainings have been terrible. Because I am a perfectionist and am constantly seeking to improve, I put a lot of thought and prayer into how I should go about teaching at the DDM's. Long story short, they were fabulous (I didn't even teach very much. I was only teaching for 15 minutes). We all received a lot of revelation and I think things are going to be upward and onward from this point forward. Which is great, because I really don't like feeling helpless when I'm teaching anyone.

Training is going well. It is nice to be reminded of the basics again and again, because it helps me to improve my overall ability as a missionary. Ironically, the things I have been learning to train him are the same things that are helping me to train him. Isn't it amazing how the Gospel works that way? All the doctrines and principles are the same for every problem. Faith, repentance, baptism, Holy Ghost, endure---over and over again. Having a hard time finding? Are you finding with faith? Have you repented of your bad habits and are you changing to meet God's will? Are you living worthy of your baptisimal covenant? Are you following the Holy Ghost? Are you enduring well? Or are you just whining about it? See what I mean? The Gospel works every day in every way.

Well, I love you all very much. I hope you have a good week. :D By the way, the church has released a new policy stated as such: "Missionaries are to write to their families each week and are also authorized to communicate by email with friends, priesthood leaders, and new converts. Mission presidents should allow sufficient time on preparation day for missionaries to write emails and letters. While in the mission field, missionaries should receive authorization from the mission president before entering into communication, including via email, with converts and others of the opposite gender within the mission boundaries (see Missionary Handbook, 36–37)."

So, if you're my friend and I love you, you are now allowed to email me (as long as you aren't living in the mission boundaries and are of the opposite sex). This will resolve a LOT of communication problems that I have been experiencing. So, if you want my email... talk to my mom.

I love you all soooooo so so so much.

Rock on. Peace, love, and temple marriage. In that order.

Elder Taylor J. Hill

Monday, March 4, 2013

Feeling So Much Better... -- 4 March 2013

It's still winter in Canada! Shocking, eh? There was a big storm that was brewing last night. Our mission President had us go home, because it was pretty ugly to be driving around in. That said, it is still snowing but is a much better condition.

When I came to Canada, a lot of people said that Alberta was "The Utah of Canada," which is something that I completely agree with. The weather really isn't all that different. It still snows at the drop of a hat, and is fluctuating all the time. The difference is whenever the snow would come around in Utah, I would immediately be either curled up with hot cocoa and a book or driving or playing in it.... or singing... but you would be surprised at the things that don't change :D (I might drink Canada dry of hot cocoa... and I still sing).

I just received my Valentine's Day package and I just wanted to say thank you soooooo much for everyone who included their love. :D We don't get mail very often, but when it comes it is just such a comfort and a strength. Whenever I hear from home or from my friends it reminds me of my purpose and of my love for what I am doing. It has been and continues to be a strength :D I love you all thank you so much.

Well, training has taken an upward turn. As has being district leader. I discovered this week that if you are having problems with a companion, just get it figured out, be willing to compromise and do your best to make the Lord your first priority and it will all work out okay. I think it takes me about a week and a half to three weeks to get used to any companion, and I think if I will just prepare myself (decide in advance) to love them, it will make life a lot easier (look at that, he's growing up!).

Elder Stanley and I have been getting along well and have witnessed several miracles this week in finding people. In our mission we try to avoid tracting as a cop out. If we do it, we plan for it specifically because we feel that's what needs to be done. We prayerfully select a neighborhood and we practice many different approaches that morning in companionship study, so that we can have our tongues loosened by the spirit instead of approaching the door the same way again and again and again. That's the definition of insanity you know: Doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result.  Instead, we try to find mostly through members (less active, active, part member, etc) because President Hinckley said so (see PMG Ch 9 "The Importance of Members" paragraphs 2-3). But we also need to be prepared for the unplanned opportunities; the following stories was one of those:

We were stopping by a less active woman in an effort to share a message with her and also to seek referrals (inviting her and others unto Christ). We talked about her family, and how rough things had been recently and we talked a little about how the Gospel blesses families. We asked if we could set up a return appointment to talk more about it, and she wasn't interested. To her, we were just nice guys to talk at. We left, feeling a bit dejected, but knew that the Lord would consecrate our efforts. As we were getting back into our car to head to our dinner appointment, a car pulled up behind us and a woman stepped out of it and began talking to whoever was in the passenger seat through the window. I had already put my bag in the car, but I started walking toward her and asked how she was. She said, "Fine" and just stared at me with a perplexed look on her face, like she couldn't believe I was talking to her. So I asked about her week (the spirit did it, not me, I can't even remember quite what I said or how I said it other than it was about her week) and she stops talking to the person at the passenger window and walks up to us and begins to tell us all about some problems she has been experiencing. After about 15 to 30 minutes of talking with her, we got her phone number, address, and a time we could come by to set talk to her about the Plan of Salvation! (plus we gave her a Book of Mormon and a Plan of Salvation pamphlet) It gets better. She has a friend who is also in need of spiritual guidance right now. :D Isn't that just incredible? So, Elders (if you've made it this far into the email) just open your mouths and it will be given you. Always plan the way PMG says to and follow the guidance of the spirit at all times, in all things and in all places.

Anyway, I'm sorry I talk so much, but I'm just so grateful that the Lord is trusting Elder Stanley and I with opportunities to speak with people about the Gospel. I love my mission so much and feel so blessed to be able to witness the works of the Lord on a daily basis.

Ooh! One of the things in my Valentines day package was a picture of the SL temple (by the way, I know it's not my choice, it's my future wife's, but if I get to choose which temple we get married in[because we will be getting married in the temple], it will be the SL because I have so many good memories of downtown SL... she can choose, but I will suggest SL :)). Anyway, on the picture it says, "Stand ye in Holy places, and be not moved." It made me think of the difference between when I study and when I don't. About a month into my mission, I went without studying for two days (because of snow shoveling...) and I just felt terrible. It was harder to keep my mind focused on good things and to be able to keep the spirit in lessons and in all other situations. So, lesson 1: Almost everywhere we go becomes a "holy place" when we have taken the time to sanctify ourselves through thoughtful, spirit directed study of the scriptures.

The scriptures are a strength to all who will open them. They are never a hindrance to any work, and they will never be a waste of time. They cleanse us through the power of the holy spirit. They give us focus on the Atonement of Jesus Christ. They allow us to begin patterns that will make us taller and stronger than we have ever been before, because when we have the spirit in our lives, we are given the ability to act as Christ Himself would act. We become powerful, intelligent, capable, confident, humble, charitable, pure, virtuous, collected, and sanctified all at the same time. The power of the scriptures is infinite because it creates the opens the door to revelation, which is the way in which we will be guided into the kingdom of God.

Lesson 2: "Following these most basic teachings, a splendor of connections to Christ opens up to us in multitudinous ways: prayer and fasting and meditation upon His purposes, savoring the scriptures, giving service to others, “succor[ing] the weak, lift[ing] up the hands which hang down, … strengthen[ing] the feeble knees.” 10 Above all else, loving with “the pure love of Christ,” that gift that “never faileth,” that gift that “beareth all things, believeth all things, hopeth all things, [and] endureth all things.” 11 Soon, with that kind of love, we realize our days hold scores of thoroughfares leading to the Master and that every time we reach out, however feebly, for Him, we discover He has been anxiously trying to reach us. So we step, we strive, we seek, and we never yield.(for the rest of this talk see: http://www.lds.org/general-conference/2006/04/broken-things-to-mend?lang=eng )

Jeffery R. Holland is the man, eh? This is the kind of power we can have in our lives if we will only turn to the Savior! We will realize that we are able to touch Heaven in every moment, because we are already connected to it by the ropes of heaven, available through the scriptures.

Lesson 3: Going back to the finding people topic. For all who are members (missionaries pay attention too, but especially regular members): The Lord does not follow our timetable. Callings are seldom convenient or easy. They are very rarely exactly what we hoped for or what we imagined they would be, but that's the way the Lord works. He tests us and tries us and puts us in difficult situations to show us what we will do when it comes to the wire. We are tested every day. We are asked to spend time in the temple frequently. We are asked to pray as a family and on our own daily (many times). We are pleaded with to do family home evening and to attend church and to give our all to the Lord. That sacrifice is seldom easy, but unless these practices become an important part of who we are, then we will never be able to accomplish the Lords purposes.

One of the things we are asked to do is to share the Gospel. We are not asked to tract. We are not asked to shout it from our rooftops or to plead people to repent, the missionaries and the spirit will do those jobs, all we are asked to do is to "and to stand as cwitnesses of God at all times and in all things, and in all places..." I beg of you to please, please, please open your mouths and speak to those you know who are not members of the church about the greatest thing that has ever happened to the earth: namely the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. When you are afraid, remember the times when you have "felt to sing the song of redeeming love" and then ask yourself  "ccan [I] feel so now?" I promise that as you voluntarily open your mouth and talk to people about the gospel that you will see miracles every day. I promise you that if you will prepare yourself through regular prayer and scripture study that you will speak with the tongue of angels, and you will feel completely at peace.
Please ask for and seek opportunities to spread the gospel. You will be blessed.

Holy cow, I didn't mean to get into it, but I have, and I hope that someone listened.

Things are going so much better now. I am leading, speaking, and learning by the spirit. I am still finding ways that I can grow, but I also know that as I submit myself to the Father that I have the strength to do them. Change happens quickly. Life is beautiful.

I get to go to the temple on Saturday :D The Bascoms (who are my favourite [that's just how they spell it in C eh' N eh' D eh'] but don't tell them, because I don't know if I'm supposed to have favourites) who have been very good friends to me and my companion have been kind enough to drive us down to Cardston, Alberta to do a session at the temple on Saturday. It will be an all day event, but it is worth it. The temple is just so... wonderful. I sure hope everyone down in Utah is taking a weekly opportunity to attend the House of the Lord and to enjoy the blessings available there. I didn't go as much as I wanted to when I was home, and I didn't realize the wonderful blessings of having many temples within 45 minutes of my house (Draper, SL, Oquirrh Mountain, Jordan River, Bountiful, American Fork, Provo, Ogden, and others). What a blessing! Don't miss out!

Transfers are going to be here next week! I will still be in Medicine Hat with Elder Stanley ( :) ). We're going to baptize a few more people down here before I'm done! Which reminds me... I need to send out some pictures... Next week. I forgot my card reader... oops. :D

I love you all so much, I hope you have an incredible week!

Rock on. Peace, love, and temple marriage. In that order.


Elder "Charlie" Taylor Jon Hill